getting off my chest

you only have yourself to get through it.
not him. not her. not them. not anybody.
thanks for nothing.
i am who i am because of me. not you.

eff you see kay why owe you

i don't know why.. or maybe i just don't care to explain.



but i fucking hate the world right now.

9 weeks to go..

im back!!!

i know its been a while. i guess you can say i was busy.. or maybe i was just too lazy to do this whole blog thing.

school.. school.. SCHOOL!! it's the one thing on my mind all the time now. i've got a handful with 19 units including lab and some extracurricular stuff. so needless to say, im busy as shit right now. doing readings for 5 classes is the hardest part. trying to stay focused when you know you could be doing other things more entertaining than digging your face into some book. oh well, i know it'll pay off come exam time. im not slipping into the mistakes i made the first two years of college. never again!


p.s. hopefully i blog sooner than later next time around.

damn..

you're super awesome. that's why i have this blog named after you. bitch.

the first in a while

so i haven't been posting blogs on this in forever. i think its due to the fact that i've been trying to keep myself busy with life and away from things such as myspace, facebook, and AIM.

well.. here i am again. haha. i guess you can say that it kinda feels good to be blogging again.

i've got plenty running through my head right now and to put it all on this blog would be ridiculous. so i think im gonna let it all sit and then blog about the things that continue to circle my mind.

efff yeah

today turned out to be a pretty good day...


first off, i'd like to say happy birthday to juan and matt. congratulations on getting older you two. haha.


so today i took care of several errands to relieve some of the stress that i would've been having for the rest of the week. unfortunately, babysitting was cancelled (i needed the money!!). i applied for a clerical job today and its pretty close to my house... so keep your fingers crossed you guys. this job could turn my summer around and make a good summer a great summer. i don't know about you but extra money is always a good thing. haha.

i also got to hangout with my old friend from high school today... some of you might know him as black mike. hahaha. we caught up on life, played a little ball.. we pretty much just kept it hood. lol jk. black mike was talking about moving out into the hood (east LA).
this had me thinking. i realize that 99.9% of my friends live at least 25 miles away from me. black mike is pretty much the only person that was within a 5 minute driving distance from my house. with him moving away, i'd have to drive really far to see any of my friends. i guess its not an issue anymore considering i've been so used to driving far to hangout with my friends. seriously, my friends and family are fucking amazing and it is totally worth driving any distance with kick it with all of you. thinking of this then had me think of something else.. do you ever wonder who your friends will be 5, 10, and maybe 50 years from now? i guess its too soon to tell, but i definitely have a couple of people in my life that i would love to see there forever. you guys probably don't even know who you are considering i have never told any of you. i think its safe to say that if you are within my close few, then im probably wanting to have you there for as long as possible. great friendships never die and i can never take them for granted. for the select few that i hope are still my friends 50 years from now.. thanks for being there for me now and when its counted =]
no homo.


well back to my day.. a few minutes ago, i found an old ucla jersey that i had in middle school that i lost because my sister borrowed it and never returned it. my mom had it in a box that she was getting ready to get rid of and luckily i saw it as it was making its way out the door. fuck yeah!! don't you love it when you lose something and find it a long time after and you feel like its new again? in this case it was 8 years, but better late than never right?! haha. besides it was like 3 sizes too big for me back then and now it fits me just right. i love it.





p.s. this has been my first post in a while. i hope to blog more often. stay tuned and i guess we'll see..

empty threats??

today i received the most random IMs from this girl from my past. to bring you up to date, things between her and i got really ugly a few weeks before i met shaneil. and since i met shaneil, i have completely removed this girl from my life.


so today she IMed with threats by her and another screen name which was supposedly her brother (to my knowledge she never even had a brother). she made threats about seeing me tomorrow and that her brother or who ever that may have been was coming along with her. the funny thing is, i wouldn't be worrying about this.. but this girl is psycho. therefore, im actually somewhat afraid. i can't but constantly think about it.


i guess these could be actual threats or just empty threats to throw fear at my face. only time will tell. i took the time to tell my closest friends about who this girl is and what types of threats she made. therefore, just in case anything ever does happen we all know who to blame for it already.








fuck you angela..

just like new

today... for the first time in a long long LONG time, i decided to clean my car. haha who would have figured right?!


it started yesterday when my dad saw how dirty my car was and felt so sorry for it that he decided to wash it himself. (thank you so much dad.. i know you'll probably never read this, but thanks a bunch!!) so then i was called down to dry the car myself. then i woke up this morning feeling super energetic.. and to top it all off, the weather wasn't so bad. for the first time in a week, the weather was actually tolerable. so i came to the conclusion that it was the perfect condition for cleaning my car. so thats exactly what i did.


all i can say is.. for all you guys that ride in my car at times (mostly kris and justin), no more having to apologize for the mess and telling you guys to have to move shit over and not break anything. haha. my car is the cleanest that i have seen it in forever.


moments after cleaning my car, i drove to vons down the street to buy a couple of items for dinner. ironically, i met the guy that sold me my car nearly five years ago. haha. crazy how that shit happened.







p.s. i still want a new car though. hahahaha.

enough is enough

i believe that respect, along with trust, are two things in this world that are earned and not just given to any person.









with that said.. fuck you.
you have neither from me.

just wondering

how many people actually look at this thing?!


i know im new to this whole blogging thing and out of curiosity i just wanted to know if people really read and go through my blog.




well.. if you're reading this, could you possibly leave a comment under this post (and totally leave it anonymous if you please). i am just really curious as to how many people read this and if it's worth it to take the time to type the same thoughts that are actually running through my mind when i come across them.



so yeah, there you go..

viva las vegas

exactly a year ago to this day, i was in vegas celebrating shaneil's 21st birthday. the weekend was filled with drinking, drinking, and more drinking. good times indeed. we did the club scene, we walked the strip, we drank like there was no tomorrow, and we had good times with good people.



i want to go back to vegas, preferably with a shitload of friends. hopefully some time this summer. maybe justin's birthday?? who knows. i guess we'll see.




p.s. if it does go down, i hope it isn't nearly as hot as it was last year. the temperature in vegas was literally still in the triple digits during the late night hours. i can't stand the heat. sweating helplessly can sometimes put me in a cranky mood.

p.s.

i don't really hate debbie tan.










but fuck you tho (debbie tan).

to all the debbie haters in the world..

hi, im sean and this is my first and only blog site ever. and not only will i talk about how much i hate debbie tan, but i will talk shit on the rest of the world. so stay tuned bitch asses and enjoy a look into my thoughts and feelings.

dear debbie tan..

i hate your guts.